And I guess I wish I could just roll over and bliss out for the rest of my life - happy with just being here, now. Happy and contented with whatever I have. But the urge to do more, be more and have some kind of worldly measure of success is so powerful it's impossible to ignore.
What if I told you that you are 100% perfect the way you are right now? It's a radical thought, especially in a society that prides itself on meritocracy. But it's true.
And so it goes. Each nation, each party, each person maintaining an arsenal and a defensive posture, assuring ourselves that it's because 'the other side' does it.
Underneath it all, we know what needs to be done. We just keep ignoring it and pretending that work isn't there.
Growth - whether physical, emotional, intellectual or spiritual - is not easy or fun. It takes energy. It takes determination. It takes patience with ourselves and others. It hurts.
But not all of our choices and freedoms are ceded for good reasons. Sometimes we give up the right to choose because we don't want to be held responsible for the outcomes, or we'd rather not take any risk.
No one is doing it perfectly. Our job is to keep showing up and doing the work, holding ourselves accountable first and foremost.
Rushing to offer solutions, or even reassurance is a way of de-centering the person who is experiencing trauma, and putting emphasis on YOU and what YOU have to offer them.
I've been inspired before, but never paid much attention to how it works or where it comes from. Mostly I just took it for granted, using it toward whatever churn I was invested in at the time.
To stop, to surrender to The Reality, is a revolutionary act. It's not even possible to live this way most of the time. Not for most of us. It's like looking at the sun.
There are more worthwhile pursuits than trying to being heard or seen by people who don't have the capacity to understand, or who simply don't want to.
They say there's only so much to go around. It's a lie.