May 15, 2020

Looking at the Sun

To stop, to surrender to The Reality, is a revolutionary act. It's not even possible to live this way most of the time. Not for most of us. It's like looking at the sun.

Looking at the Sun

Do you ever feel like you're stuck in a never-ending loop? Like the movie Groundhog Day? Log on the internet in the morning and it's the same people, saying the same things, with the same outrage and the same rhetoric?

Even the messages of "inspiration" all run together - artless memes with some quote or message meant to give you a boost so you can "be strong" and "stay calm" and all the things we think we're supposed to be doing, believing and fighting for.

Maybe we're all just contributing to a mass delusion?

Maybe we're enabling one another - yes, even our opponents/enemies - to look the other way, avoiding the hard work that needs to be done inside ourselves?

Maybe we engage in all our "battles" to avoid the truth about who and what we are and what we can really expect out of this life?

Human nature is notoriously good at projecting our crap on others and avoiding the truth. We are so very smart. Rational lies. We can rationalize anything that protects us from discomfort.

We can rationalize any hate or violence toward others. We can come up with the best possible reasons why we - or the people we care about - deserve things that others don't. And that includes grace, patience, and tolerance.

And the smartest of us are the best at this.

To stop the process of self-delusion, to surrender to The Reality, is a revolutionary act.

It's not even possible to live this way most of the time. Not for most of us. It's like looking at the sun. We have to take it in glimpses, or look for its reflection (which I would say is the true purpose of art) - too much of it too soon will dissolve us completely, driving us mad.

It's worth doing, though. It's the only way we'll break free of our never ending loop of denial, desire and delusion.

Ask yourself the hard questions.

Don't suppress the discomfort.

Pay attention to the things you avoid.

Pay attention to the things you seek out.

Liberation has a steep price.

But the alternative is a life in bondage, a second-hand life lived through the foggy layers of ego and fear.